Closure

Lately I got myself thinking about closure.
It's so true we all need closure. When something is over we need to turn the page, we need to know the whys, the whens.
We don't want hang in there, victims of doubts.
Today I was pastsick for a while, you know, you can be seasick, homesick...well today I was pastsick for the time it takes to look at bright sky and wish you were at the sea, you are 18, you are mess, you don't what you want but you know you are going to get it, you don't know the meaning of love but somehow feel like you do, the arrogance of thinking I'm 18 I know it all, but those crazy summer nights, those bright summer days...
I wouldn't want to go back, I would like just like a taste of it, a spoon, a slice...
How strange,  my past it's mine but somehow doesn't belong to me anymore.